On Politics and Energy Vampires

We need to talk about Epstein. 

I’m a sex coach.  It is my job to help people with their intimate lives.  Though people blush and giggle when I introduce myself as a sex coach, it actually isn’t a particularly silly job at all. 

I used to be a scientist.  I used to be an engineer.  I used to be a teacher of math and physics and other generally hard stuff widely appreciated as serious work done by intelligent, capable people. 

Now, I am a sex coach.  

Now, people let me into their deepest intimate trauma, and I help them out via sexual-healing.  It’s where the world needs me right now even more than the very important work of science.   We as humanity shouldn’t have to pick just one (sexual healing vs. scientific progress), but I, as a sole human, am choosing to heal psychic wounds at the moment.

Because I still value knowledge very deeply, I have studied sexuality deeply.  And I am beginning to recognize that Trump and Epstein have studied some of the same teachers and texts that I have – and then used them for the absolute darkest, most maleficent purposes.  This field of sexual energy work has always been vulnerable to abuse.  It is capable of great healing in the right hands, and of enormous harm in the wrong ones. I haven’t seen anyone else talk about where esoteric sexual practice intersects with the Epstein tory, so I’m talking about it today.

Let’s start with Trump’s birthday message to Epstein.  

Visual cue here is that this is clearly an adolescent girl.  

I say this as a grown woman with extremely small breasts myself.  It isn’t about ignoring women of my shape.  It’s about recognizing the way the illustrator thinks and works: he is not a man of subtlety when it comes to women’s bodies.  He would depict any grown woman he considers sexually alluring to have exaggerated breasts, and here they are small, budding anatomy.  This is a girl, not a woman.

Then there are the words. These three lines stand out to me: 

There is more to life than having everything

Enigmas never age, have you noticed that? 

May every day be another wonderful secret. 

This isn’t striking any cords with reporters I’ve seen cover it.  It won’t stand out to you unless you have studied Tantric and Taoist sexual energy practices the way that I have.  

One of my favorite teachers of Taoist energy work is Mantak Chia.  He is prolific, covering all forms of energy work and bodily function, including (but not limited to!) sexual energy and sexual practice. What I have seen of his work feels healthy and appropriate and well-held (though I have never worked with him directly and will defer questions of his character to students who have).

Chia introduced me to the concept of sexual vampirism.(1) He uses the example of an old man who develops his energy practice to great mastery, then has sex exclusively with very young women, using his mastery to suck them of their life force energy on purpose. 

The young women grow old before their time (trauma will do that), and the old men seem to never age, as they feed off of their naive, inexperienced victims.  

To be clear, Chia is NOT advocating for this as a practice.  He is warning against it.  

He mentions that women can accidentally steal men’s life force in sex, if the man is inexperienced in his energy work.  (Think of the post-coital couple: she is chatty and energized and he needs a nap.)  Chia teaches how men and women together can learn to circulate the energy so that it builds both up in both partners and fuels them both together.  

Vampirism, he says, is more often done on purpose by men, and it is something he cautions as mis-use of his powerful Taoist teachings. 

The concept appears again in a different world of energy work: Neo-Tantra, a branch of spiritual practice invented and taught by Osho.  

A warning on Osho.  I hold Mantak Chia in high esteem.  And I do, too, with Osho – but with BIG reservations.  Osho was absolutely a cult leader.  One has to be careful LISTENING to his work, for it is HE who delivers the audio, and his voice is his mechanism of trance induction.  This is a skill that is not inherently bad.  I use my voice to induce trance in my somatic coaching clients all the time – with my clients’ consent.  With scaffolding that supports them pulling out, and ALWAYS in their best interest and the goals we set together at the beginning of our work.  Even non-voluntary audial trance induction isn’t necessarily bad.  Think of how the music hits you when you dance, think of being moved to tears in a movie as the music swells.  Think of the power of poetry.  All of this is trance induction.  It is always powerful, and that power can be used for good or evil. 

Osho is an odd duck.  He’s a brilliant man, and an incredibly skillful teacher.  But does he use it for good?  Yes.  Does he use it for ill?  Also yes.  

Listening to Osho reminds me of reading Lolita – not because he’s a pedophile.  I don’t believe that Osho is a pedophile (though, again, I defer to those who have worked with him in person for those questions).  Rather, Osho is like Nabokov in that he is mesmerizing.  

The magic of Nabokov’s novel, Lolita, is the way he draws you in, lulls you into a trance where you begin to open the the siren song of a monster’s internal desires…

Then, BAM! He CRASHES  you back into disgust at the reality of the monster’s cruel and selfish heart, and disgust at yourself for entertaining it even for a moment.  

Lolita is one of the best books I’ve ever read.  

It’s magic.  It’s manipulative. It’s a masterpiece.  It’s a wild ride that leaves me in awe of the power of words.

Osho is like that.  

In all my years of meditation, of working with reputable, incredible teachers, I count Osho’s meditations as some of the very best I’ve ever sat for. 

I was never Osho’s student in real life.  I have studied with some of his students’ students.  And I have listened to many hours of recordings of his live lectures, which are available at Osho International (approach with caution). But even in listening to the old scratchy recordings of a voice dead before I found him, he can lull me into complacency and then crash me out again, when he eviscerates a student on his road from teacher to cult leader.  

He was a powerful person, and continues to be through the work he left behind.  Has that power done good?  Yes.  Has that power done ill?  Yes, and I believe Epstein was an agent of using these teachings for harm.

I have been entranced by the work of Christopher Anderson ever since his excellent Vanity Fair piece on the current presidential cabinet.  I am fixated on his photographs, on the discourse they’ve inspired. 

So today, across my feed comes the work and words of Christopehr Anderson: photographs of Jeoffrey Epstein. 

There’s a lot to notice in the Epstein post, and I encourage you to go read all of Anderson’s text as well, but here’s what I notice: the orange book in the upper right hand corner.  I’d recognize O S in that particular font anywhere.  

Here’s Osho from MY library, on MY kitchen table.

We both read OSHO, Epstein and I.  Lolita, too.

Only we took away different things from these sources.

To me, Lolita is a horror story. To Epstein, pornography.

I use sexual energy work to help women heal from birth trauma.

Epstein used it to wheel and deal in power and pain, traumatizing hundreds if not thousands in a few short decades. 

I wasn’t able to positively identify the book on Epstein’s table.  Perhaps it’s  The Book of Wisdom, printed under a different cover.  Another possibility is Secret of Secrets, which has an orange cover.  I have read (heard) Secret of Secrets. It examines the teachings of Lao Tzu. But I don’t remember any of the practices from that volume being specifically sexual in nature (in The Book of Secrets there are about 3 sexual practices out of 112). 

Note that most of Osho’s books include the word “Secret” in the title, as does Trump’s birthday note to Epstein.  

This is a big deal.  Spiritual energy work is a kind of magic.  

It might be weird to hear a scientist say something is magic.  But here’s what I mean: mastering your own power of attention allows you to manipulate people – social animals as we are – in ways that are often hidden, and so complicated we don’t notice them and can’t pin them down.  Any technology insufficiently understood might as well be magic.  You can learn how to manipulate tech for your own purposes without deeply understanding it (I say, typing words into a laptop I could never hope to build from scratch myself.) 

Worse, the world of science raises up cognitive thought, the kind you’re aware that you’re thinking as BETTER THAN other forms of consciousness.  So that those who are open to learning deeply of the subconscious and how to control it are able to operate invisible to the world of science and reason.  

Trump and Epstein aren’t just big rich clumsy bad guys.  They are focused, evil magicians.  

I don’t like talking publicly about magic, because I know it can and will be used to discredit me in the world of science, a world which I hold very dear.  And yet, here we are.  If you’re uncomfortable with “magic” or “energy,” substitute “attention.” It is the same thing. The bad-guys are willing to use attentional tools that rational, thinking people don’t notice because we aren’t trained to exercise them and the people who TRAIN these skills use words we think are silly and unreal and so they get dismissed outright.  

But it IS about attention, and it IS about subconscious, and that means it IS ALSO about trance-state induction, which is something that ABSOLUTELY exists and you have probably experienced today at the hands of a social media algorithm. (That’s what a doom scroll is!) I don’t know if Epstein was good at trance induction, but I infer that he was quite skilled at inerpersonal power and manipulation and I believe that he practiced “sexual vampirism” as Chia describes it. Trump FOR SURE uses trance state induction. I’ve seen him do it. So have you.

When Trump talks nonsense on the stage for 20 minutes, pay attention to the first coherent statement he makes AFTER the nonsense. He is seeding that one clear statement into the subconscious of his audience.  Nonsense is a form of trance induction.  It will open you to feeling-as-true whatever cogent words come after.  I learned that from my hypnosis teacher, Mike Mandel.    

Everyone’s always making fun of Trump’s tiny hands – which he holds in ancient mudras.  Again, trance-inducing.  He knows exactly what he’s doing with his hands and with his nonsense. 

I can’t speak for Trump’s cogency right now, it does appear, from the outside, that he’s losing it.  But he knew EXACTLY what he was doing when he started his rise to political power. 

Worse, he and Epstein knew exactly what they were doing every time they ever sucked the life force out of a child or, if that language is too woo, every time they inflicted trauma on a child for their own gratification.

Lolita was a horror novel. The Epstein Files are, unfortunately, nonfiction.

(1)The educated woman in me desperately want to site here.  I’ve read at least three of Mantak Chia’s books, and by “read” I mean I listened to the audio version.  Frustratingly, I can’t remember which one this comes from, and I don’t have the paper copy to leaf through.  AI didn’t turn it up for me when I asked, and I don’t have an editorial staff to do my menial labor.  Help a girl out if you have the book and the skill to skim, or the digital version with a search bar.  I would LOVE a direct quote and page number here. My best guess for source book is Taoist Secrets of Love: Cultivating Male Sexual Energy by Mantak Chia.